By Wednesday, I’d already had two mental breakdowns. By Thursday, I already had three quizzes. And by Friday, my eyes were so strained that I could barely look at the screen. I would stare at the lecture wondering how on earth I was going to be tested over it. Virtual Test? Or possibly no test? The first week of virtual school was filled with pressure, homework, and plain confusion.
Doing school from home doesn’t sound too hard, does it? While people see remote learning as “easy,” the reality is a bit different. And man, I can guarantee that my first day of class took me by surprise.
Considering that I’m from a family who’s been in quarantine for basically months, learning remotely seemed like a good idea on paper. But that “paper” was having to tackle four AP, two Dual Credit, and two honors classes, all in the comfort of the bedroom floor. The fact that this is my junior year, a.k.a. the hardest year of high school, did absolutely nothing to help the situation.
I haven’t even begun with my main struggle. While AP, DC, and honors classes are hard enough physically AT school, try staying engaged for five back-to-back lectures daily. Tough, I know. This led to many moments where I found my eyelids slowly closing, and by the time I knew what was happening, the main point of the lesson would already be over. Not to mention that by the end of class, the strain on my eyes was so unbearable I had to walk outside for a brain break.
Even in a physical class, for me to fully understand a lecture, I need to engage in conversation. Since remote live streaming is set up so that only the teacher can hear us, it’s almost impossible to talk with the students. This format may work for most people, but for a talkative person like me, it was fairly difficult.
Coming back to school after the first week of remote learning wasn’t my plan, but that’s what ended up happening. But because of how serious my family takes the situation, I’m not allowed to do anything after school without wearing fresh clothes, taking a shower, and sanitizing.
I have no doubt that those staying at home (like my brother) are being safer, but in the end, it’s a personal choice. I don’t regret coming back to school because I’m learning better, but I make sure to be extra safe since I have vulnerable family members at home. Whether someone is doing remote or not, I feel like this year is about making the best of the situation. Most of all, it’s about staying healthy.